LANGUAGE OF HEARTS

Feeling dwells in me, wraps itself in every nerve;

Wonderfully scripted in every note of the rhythm my heart plays;

A feeling gentle and yet consuming;

My soul welcomes this warm glow in me;

It settles like a mantle in the depths of my heart;

The golden rays of the feeling so wonderful glow in me;

These rays are reflected in every smile;

In every word I say to him;

Words of music and poetry dwell in my thoughts…

His hand is gentle, his stare is deep;

His eyes are searching, reading every script of my heart;

He knows my every thought, feels what I need;

In the silence our hearts engage in dialogue;

Dialogue of their own language;

He feels and I feel it;

This is the language of love……

Language that man can not decipher;

It knows no race, age, height or size;

When it’s true and pure, only hearts can speak;

Word of mouth can not speak this language so simple;

So simple and yet rare to find hearts that understand it..

This is what our hearts say….

Feeling so gentle even when in flames….

Let the feeling grow, let it be……

You have no say in this;

Final word comes from the heart;

“Love”, “amour”, “mapenzi”…

Whatever the language the word of mouth calls it;

Only hearts understand it…

Hmmm…..love…….

POTHOLES……

I was wondering today at the number of road incidents in the UAE whereas the road conditions are excellent in comparison to the roads in Africa, Kenya to be exact. The roads here are very well maintained, new and more or less on flat ground. I guess the UAE road users would never believe the winding roads of Switzerland and yet the accident rates are minimal.

I am not saying the sole reason for safety on the road is the condition but what I wish to discuss tonight is “pot holes”. Wooow!! My country Kenya has them! At a face value we may complain and say how this damages our cars and makes driving and uncomfortable and I agree. Many would say that the bends and turns on the winding roads of Switzerland kill the joy of speed and makes driving less thrilling…

We all have our excuses but let’s look at the positive side of things; when we drive through a pot hole, we are obliged to slow down and drive carefully because we never know the size of the hole. This gets worse especially when it rains and the holes are filled with water. The winding roads have the same effect and we have to slow down on the narrow bends and show extra care…

Wondering where this is leading? Think about it. Isn’t life the same way? Let’s take problems/troubles, stumbling blocks and pain. The effect is the same. When we go through the “potholes” in our lives, we are forced to slow down and tread carefully. The journey is unpleasant and we often complain. But lets think about the simple fact that when the life goes on so fast like it does in the current world; we need the potholes, we need the bends and turns to slow us down and bring us to our senses.

We may pick up speed but once we are aware of the fact that the road has potholes, we will drive carefully as we watch for the next one. If we are going through a tough time tonight, tread carefully and just like a pot hole, it will come to pass but be sure there will be another one..

It amazing how time flies but we must remember that behind the wheel is “you”. God has given you a wonderful gift of time and he has likewise offered to be with us throughout the flight/drive…

Even at the potholes of life we have the road engineer/life(time) giver….. how good can it get?

Seeing is believing…..

Thinking on the subject “credit cards”….often when I visit malls I see many people swapping their credit cards for the huge and in most cases unbudgeted purchases. Over a conversation with an acquaintance of mine today, I realize that often people don’t realize the trick behind electronic money. How simple the theory is and yet we fail to realize this and fail to control our appetites….

Have you ever thought of trying a simple experiment during shopping? Identify what you really want you to buy and instead of using your card, present hard cash. How does it feel to let go of the huge amount of cash for something we can live without? You will suddenly realize how much you spend in your purchases. When you swap your card, it feels more like a gift, “electronic money”…

Don’t get me wrong, I am not condemning credit cards even though I am not a firm believer of them. I am simple advising “us” to restrain from wishing for what we don’t have, to plan and use our resources wisely. There are times when credit cards will be needed, but why don’t we keep them for these moments?

Let’s try to live by our mean and for those who have no credit cards or credit card debt, I congratulate you for that. For those who have 10 credit cards in your wallets, work on getting red of the nine. Keep one for a rainy day..

You will realize that my argument is based on common sense and many of the financial persons may disagree but think wisely…spend the hard cash and you will believe….

For seeing is believing….

A BIRD IN HAND...........

Lately I have been speaking to married couples and most of them have a negative view on marriage. Many of the people I spoke to regardless of the duration of co habitation, never said a positive side of being married. This leaves me wondering if man will ever be in a position to shed his nature of always seeking what’s beyond reach. Some seek perfection, some seek “better partners”, and some seek the reasons why they can’t be happy. all in all our nature on not appreciating the beautiful bird we have at hand and always seeking the two in the bush is not easy to get rid of..

Let’s get this straight; I am not a relationship therapist but I like to reason with the simple facts before my eyes. When two people decide to live together and create a family, they come from different backgrounds, up bringing, belief and even though they may have common beliefs and love, the bottom line is that these two people decide to join as one. It’s not an easy task. It’s a task that will need assimilation into each others lives and tradition, means compromise and above all it means they stop acting as individuals in the eyes of the society. They become one.

It’s not easy to compromise and it’s not easy to give in unconditionally and stop thinking of self. But do we think of these factors when choosing our partners? Do we seek guidance (for some people it’s from God, some Allah), learn from our past experiences and find out what we really want in a partner?

At the end of it all we make decisions and we become part of other people’s lives and future. We could either break them or build them. Trust me its much fulfilling to build someone than to break them. To see a spark and smile in the eyes of your beloved is a fulfillment of its own kind.

For the people who are married and have made the decision to be part of other people lives, think of the things that made you love your partners and work to keep them alive. Work to build the man or woman who stand s beside you; work to make the person who wakes beside you smile; times when it’s not a bed of roses, talk about it…. Don’t seek what is lurking outside in the bush..

A bird in hand is the gift you have today; don’t let it go…….

Christmas wish….

Every year we all lay our wishes at Christmas for the next year. For some people it’s more or else a habit they carry on from their parents and families. How often do we take time to think over what we wish for? Often what we wish for may not be what we need or perhaps we wish for something that life has already presented us…

This night I lie on my bed and wonder why one wish that I have put across at Christmas has not been granted as yet. Could it be possible that I have passed by my answer in the course of the year? Perhaps my wish is a cliché’ which need to be reviewed? May be it’s not what I need or the time has not yet arrived for it to be?

Whatever the reason is this Christmas I will lay my wish once more. This time in form of a prayer; hoping the heavens will hear me out and send me an answer. Above all that I may be able to see the answer when it comes to be. Let my Christmas wish be a desire for something noble and beautiful. It’s a wish that will hopefully make a difference in the world around me and the people I love…..

Don’t be afraid to make a wish but careful as to what you wish for it may come to be…

When we have a heart that beats….

Watching the series “Ghost whisperer” today leads me into thinking on how lucky we are when we have a heart that beats. A heart that wakes with us when our body wakes,; one that allows us to be anxious; a heart that lets take a risk in love and a heart that allows us to go through pain and eventually heal.

This is a free gift given to us and many a times we forget how lucky we are. For some who lack this kind of heart; they can not afford to have a day of leisure; they live every moment as if it were their last and many of them withdraw from life with a thought that tomorrow is not on their count. Do we ever sit down to say thank you to the “one” who gave us this wonderful heart? To some it’s from God, for some Allah; for some Krishna and so on.( I am not here to criticize any religion but I believe in this world we are not alone and the presence of a supernatural being is eminent. In my case it’s God.)

Think about how many times you complain of how your manicure doesn’t look good; you cry when you have a muscle pull and yell when a simple fact doesn’t go right in our daily life..its absolutely correct to express our emotions and grievances but what extent do we it? Many times we curse and make all around us seem so imperfect. We forget of the simple joy that is in us. Our heart, WHEN OUR HEART BEATS…….

Count yourself lucky today and try to live a life of gratitude. Do not expect everything to go your way but instead accept the challenges that will come your way. We are lucky to be able to breathe the air around us; to be able to feel all these emotions; to allow ourselves the luxury of planning for tomorrow and the next even though never knowing what it will bring..

Think about it today, my dearest reader…you dream because you have a heart that beats. My advise to you is love with all your strength; keep joy in your heart; allow pain to pass through and above all take care of your gift; your precious heart that keeps you alive…it beats just for you………

In a single word

I was discussing one important fact of life with a friend of mine. It’s a powerful tool that has been entrusted to us. The power of the tongue, “WORDS”. It came to my attention that quite often we use words without measure. We say things we don’t mean to, give promises, and express hate, show love, declare where we stand amongst other things.

Have you ever wondered how a simple word could change a lot around you? Take an example of the word YES and NO; how often do we say this word without thinking of the consequences. From a simple question to simple declaration, these two words could bear life changing repercussions. Have you sat and wondered where these words go to? They certainly don’t disappear into thin air because quite often people remember the words we say to them. Its stored in the memories of the recipients and at the same time they float into the space around us. They don’t change but circumstances under which we use them vary.

In a simple word we can spread hate, love, pain and joy. We can change the world with what we say and it would not hurt a bit if we could think before we said any word. If we could weigh the consequences of what we wish to say before actually saying it.

Take a more practical example: for two people in love or those who care for each other. Isn’t it amazing how a simple word your partner could make you breakdown or lift you up? Isn’t it important the in the simple words we get from him/her bear understanding? How often do we take foregranted the gift of having someone to share our dreams, thought and even fears in from of words?

If what we say bears such great power, why do misuse this gift of being able to communicate? Why do hold back what we could have said to make the other person feel better and say words that we don’t mean to say? If we have such great power within our grasps why do we cause so much pain to other people by saying careless words and often lies to the people around us?

Tonight I think on the power of the words that will come out of my mouth in my next conversation. I promise to myself that when I can avoid it I will say nothing. I will say what is right at the right time and in the right tone. I will stick to the truth and bear the feelings of the recipient of my words in mind……….

This is the promise I give myself to be in a position to control the power of the words that I have been entrusted with. In other words the power of the tongue.

Giving without taking……

Have you ever been in love with someone who doesn’t love you back? Well , I guess many of you have been victims of this “cancerous” feeling called unreciprocated love. We have been both the victims and villains at the same time in this game of love. Many times our minds help us out of these situation but on certain occasions not even the strongest mind can’t fight a heart that chooses to truly love…

This heart gives without taking, the feeling starts as a small tingle, gentle smile, simple gestures which turn into sweet ache, it slowly but surely covers your being like moss cover a damp tree. It spreads to your thoughts, dreams and in all you do you can’t help avoid this sweet desire to make the heart’s chosen one happy…

Many of you who have read my blog may wonder why I write mostly about love; well the answer is simple: love is the base of all that happen. It starts with God’s love to the love of the people around us. Love is a foundation of a lot that exist and it’s a feeling that can turn cancerous if we don’t tame it……

But what if we look at it from the other person’s point of view? Isn’t that the only way to relate with those near and dear to us? Isn’t it always a fact that true love knows how to let go and that we should never let the desire to posses someone overcome our sense of reason? Tonight I ponder on this topic of love and reflect on my life for the people I have loved, those who loved me back, those who never loved me back and I see things in a different way because I have been a villain too when I didn’t love back.

Help me think this through; maybe we should revise the meaning of love. Can it ever exist unreciprocated? When do we draw a line between love and desire? Isn’t always that in the game of love we never really loose when our loved ones leave us because when we love we don’t own the people we love. Loss only occurs to property that is owned but love is freedom. I talk of the love of a brother, of a sister, of a parent and the love of our partners…

When we love someone we ought to give without taking and when they leave however hard it maybe, we have to let them go and spread the joy of love to others as well..for the heart in pain , doubt and anxiety tonight, I would only like to say that your day will come and with every passing day you draw nearer to reciprocated love.

How sweet it sounds “ love that gives without taking”……..

BLOSSOM OF A BUTTERFLY...

My mood is high today; my soul soars above the clouds,

In me it seems as though I am in the wilderness of blooming roses;

I am floating in a place of sunshine;

My body sways through the trees swiftly,

My feet swift like butterfly wings;

The feeling is overwhelming, joy so free and overflowing;

Why should my soul be sad? Why should I frown or sulk?

Look at the butterfly; it blossoms from a caterpillar to a beautiful, free existence;

Isn’t life the same? Whenever we feel that the world rejects us?

When we feel not beautiful enough?

When we can’t be the apple of the eye of those who surround us;

We are subdued in the darkness of a cocoon just a like the 1^st stage of life of a butterfly;

When we don’t know how to break free;

Yet when we break free we still feel not beautiful enough?

We become caterpillars; still feared, dreaded;

Not good enough at least not enough to be thought as beautiful;

Why don’t we be patient and look forward to the time when we can blossom into a beautiful butterfly?

We can then fly away; drift away in the gentle wind;

Spread our colors for all to see…

Important fact to note is that we have the power to decide when to blossom and how long to blossom;

Let the joy reside in you;

Choose to break free from the cocoon and once you are free;

Once you blossom, never let it go;

When you loose this joy, you will wither and perhaps never to rise….

Don’t loose your colors to become a moth….

It’s a beautiful day to blossom;

Tomorrow will be beautiful too;

Even if not beautiful, I choose to stay on the bright side of life;

Never to turn into a dark, hairy moth…

Will blossom and spread my bright colors of joy……

ESSENCE OF LOVE.............................

I had a long conversation with two of my friends who happen to be a couple and are going through a trying moment in their life at present. The situation seems almost unsolvable and they are having sleepless nights to try and come with a near optimal solution to this sudden problem. Life has not been so easy for them and their life story is quite long.

I sympathize with them and ask them curiously how they are fairing on. And the answer I get from them sets me thinking.. He says “as long she is there with me, it makes it all easier”; she says “as long he believes we can make it through, I will believe”. These are very simple sentences and given that this couple is Christian, I expect them to say that God will see them through. Of course they believe HE will see them through the tough time but they have amazing faith in their union and they say that God is the bond of their marriage.

You may wonder why I write this but I have spoken to many couples Christian and non Christian and they often forget the value of their partners. When the troubles in life start to wear them down, many seek refuge elsewhere. Some stay way from home and come back in the wee hours of the morning. Many loose the will to talk about it. Hearts are hardened; blames are thrown left-right. Very few sit and try to work it out together..

Many people loose the power of conversation; the power to recognize that he/she is there holding their hands. How often do people take foregranted the love in their lives. When they forget the commitment once made before witnesses. What iF they held on together like this couple is doing. They look at each other in fatigue but he is happy she is there with him and she is happy he is there with her…

I envy them for they have strong weapon against trials, which is love..thats all we need when the night is so dark and we cant see ahead and the tears blind our sight..when we are tired how pleasant is it to know that we have someone to help us through…

He/ she is there…THE ESSENCE OF LOVE….

BECAUSE HE DREAMT.......

This morning I woke up in a low mood and didn’t wanna do anything, coming to work was a problem but such days happen to all I believe. I pushed my weary self out of the bed, to the bathroom and I felt discouraged that some of the dreams I had so long dreamt were not coming to reality. I reminded myself that dreams are there to motivate us and not necessarily to come true. This line was enough for me to get my “ ass “ out of the house and get on road….

When I turned on the TV at the break room, the words on CNN screen made my heart almost leap, it was unbelievable, exciting, and unpredictable and above all I felt a surge of inspiration flow within me. This news may not affect me directly, I may be insignificant party here but one thing that was eminent at that moment was the courage and extreme optimism I received. Who told you that you were too small to dream? Who discouraged you that you could never reach for the stars? These people may have been close to you and you had great hope for their support. What if they were wrong? Do you know that a life without dreams is like dry bones.. Dreams are the source of oil that nourishes the flame in our souls. How many times do we let people dictate to us what we can become and what we can not?

Today I learn that hardships will come my way, tears will fall and I will loose strength to carry on but I will not let go on my faith. I will hold on to what I believe, listen to what opinions people have to say but I will trust my inner self to make the decision. For that is the source of my dreams.

The yesterday’s happening may be discouraging, the pain may have made us fall hard and we get sleepless nights over this. It doesn’t matter how hard you fall or how disgraceful it may be but it’s of a great deal how we arise. Its wise to get in touch with the inner “we” and find out what it says, don’t be afraid to let the dreams motivate you and lift you in the wings of an eagle. You will soar again above the clouds of pain and doubt just as the eagle flies above the clouds of rain.

However it’s important to work to achieve your dreams and this you need abundance of self love, faith and self acceptance. In this way you will be in a position to pass on the love and optimism to all around you. You will never ever truly love and make other people happy when you don’t love yourself or miss the joy within you…

Back to my inspiration this morning: BARACK OBAMA dreamt, he fought, and he passed his joy and optimism to all around him. He inspired them to dream with him…he achieved his goal… but remember it all began with a simple dream. H e held on to his dreams…………………

TERMINAL…………

Being ill this week made me loose my mood, feel extremely exhausted and lonely. I complained within me and lamented to the flu that was tormenting my body and spirit. However, the news I got in the middle of the week made me stop and think twice. Here I was complaining to a sickness that could be cured and yet there were people who wished to hear the magical word “cure”…

How about those people who had been diagnosed with terminal illness, the people who had been advised by the doctors to get their stuff right? When the doctor shrugs his shoulders in defeat. I think of these people tonight. When you know that every day you live the alien in your system makes your body decay. Brings your immunity to its knees. If you have children you have to start saying goodbye and getting them ready for your absence.

When you know that the sunsets and sunrises draw you closer to the end of your journey. How hard it is to reconcile with this fact. It’s a tough call that demands a lot of courage and strength. And every step of the way is taken with a lot of effort. But they should not loose faith because however painful it may be they have the privilege to prepare their loved ones and reconcile to the lives they have lived.

I was watching an episode of” EXTREME HOME MAKEOVER” tonight and I was especially touched by the strength the woman whose home had been re-made had despite having cancer at 3^rd stage. She had no regrets for the life she had lived, no regrets for the man that stood beside her, held her hand, she was not worried of leaving her kids behind because to her every moment she had spent with them would last her a lifetime. She trusted that the love they shared would get them through the tough times yet to come and her smile was amazing.

This is just an example of how life turns out to be when we live every moment to the fullest and with thanksgiving in our hearts. How many times do we tell the people we love how we feel, do we hold them like it would be our last time? To our children do we set the best examples for them to emulate when we are gone? In the midst of pain, love is all the matters. It will make us soar in the wings of an eagle and run like wild horses…

Therefore for those who have curable illness ( I don’t mean to look down on any illness), you have no right to complain, bare it bravely and think of it as a time when your body needs to get to the other face of life. For those who dread the word terminal take heart for the creator of all may have a different course for you.

Remember seek the Lord and you will find him and he will save and heal you……

His humility touched me…….

Living in a busy town like dubai makes you overlook the small injustices that go on around you; not a long while ago I found myself in a group of people who were describing the Indian community in Dubai. I must say that despite them being my company, I realized I didn’t want to be there, I wanted to be in a place where I didn’t have to look at a person because of his race. Colors or tribe; I wanted to look at a person and listen to he/she had to say, without thinking of his/her appearance;

I am not innocent in criticism and judgment and I am not proud of this but after this experience today, I feel I need to change my view of life and people; I was at the supermarket about 150 meters from my house. Not a great distance if you ask me and I purchased a melon which weighed about 6kgs amongst other foodstuffs. The supermarket offered me someone to carry my shopping to my doorstep. This should be normal in most supermarkets in this area.

There was something about this guy that caught my eye; he was frail and skinny. He was sweating and his shoes were dusty. He took on my luggage with a cracked smile, he was weak and tired…as we walked on to my place, he was smiling, it was genuine and humble; it was in a way sweet; we had gone few steps when he came tumbling down with my shopping after him, he didn’t trip, he just fell, in a split of second he was up, my shopping with him.

“Sorry madam”, he managed to smile….

Why do I tell you this story? It’s because I gave him a bottle of water and asked him to sit by the pavement to rest a bit, and I am sure I saw a tear in his eyes when he sat down. I didn’t want to ask him more but I felt humbled to meet such humility in this unjust city, probably he had nothing to eat or was overworked but he still kept a smile and was humble as ever… I am not trying to be too emotional but I felt sorry for this guy and for the many Indian people I have talked ill of or made jokes of..

Life goes beyond four walls; life is in the eyes of the person who walks by you, the one who smiles to you, who holds your hand. Life is all around us not only about us..

Open your eyes and smile to your neighbor, he may be suffocating in his world, he may be exhausted, he has a right to be there just like you have a right to be….

His humility touched me deep inside, I only wished I had time to talk to him more….

It’s a lesson learnt, a lesson shared…..

HOTEL ROOM:

Sitting in my hotel room I begin to imagine how life is in fact similar to a hotel room in many ways. Life is constant motion and things change; we meet different people; experience rough times ; people come and leave our lives; many times they leave a mark and sometimes their presence go unnoticed; to some people we are the perfect friends but to some we still need to be polished out. If you keenly compare above to a hotel room; you realize that it faces the same. Good to bad inhabitants; people walk in and out of the rooms; some leave it in a good state as it was before, their presence un noticed whereas some cause significant damage hence leaving a mark; some think it was the best room whereas some wish for a better suite.

The most remarkable thing is that the room stays to serve all kind of guests; as others leave others walk in to the same refreshed room ( I admit, they are thoroughly cleaned); the rooms serve them just as the previous guests perhaps even better. You may wonder why I compare life to a hotel room but I realize that it shows how strong we can be and how better we can embrace life.

Many times we complain, searching for better conditions in our lives but what of if we could embrace change; why can’t we be ready to accept the different phases in our lives as part of the constant motion? Why must we always look for an explanation or excuse? All we need is a good clean up for our next encounter and warmly embrace the next phase of our life. It may be painful, may not be what we expect but change is a good as a rest;

At this point I remember a phrase that has stuck in my memory for a while now and it seems to taking center in my life “ NEVER SETTLE FOR THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE” embrace life as tough as it may be who knows what tomorrow brings?

Always remember that today’s sunset paves way to tomorrow’s sunrise; so is life, today’s pain paves way to tomorrow’s joy…

“Become a hotel room “ Embrace change……

RETREAT

RETREAT….

Some days in our lives we feel that we can’t fight the pressure anymore. We run short of supplies for courage, strength and tolerance. Exhaustion sets in and loneliness clouds our vision. Comes a time when we feel lonely and yet we are not alone. We have friends around us…what can one do when his/her heart is tired and the emotional baggage is too much around them.

How can you be strong for your friends and family when you are running out of strength yourself? Questions arises of “who cures the doctor?”. When you feel you can’t be strong any longer, it’s alright to break down; it’s alright to let the people around you know the trouble of your soul. No need to play brave, no need to play wise, no need to be a hero…

Take time to heal, find a retreating point and get inside you and search yourself. Listen to your inner you and communicate to him/her. Nourish your inner self and in this way you will be healed again…

It’s alright to feel exhausted; you can not always be strong……..

When all that was to be said has been spoken……………….

This evening I was wondering about love stories gone sour. What happens when lovers can’t bear to talk each other any longer? When the feeling cools down and passion is substituted by a simple glare. How do they get to make each other smile or laugh like before? Time has gone by fast and other priorities have been set. How do they get this far without realizing what is at stake? Is love all there is to life? Is love just an overrated phenomenon?

All these questions have no clear answers but the key is to communicate and communicate; the simple I love you’s , simple sweet words like “darling”, simple flattering compliments and sharing good laughter. This is where the memories are made. Despite the complexity of a man’s/woman’s heart the secret is found in the simplest of things. From a day well spent and gentle hand held. You may call me a dreamer but I believe that in the complexity of life everyone seeks what would make all look simpler or easier….

Get back to the basics and try not to complicate love because sometimes the mountains we try to climb in life are nothing but just a grain of sand…we have to learn to love , to accept and embrace. We like wise have to learn to let go when we can’t change the minds of the people we love…

Before we let go lets get back to the basics. Find what made you love this person. These qualities are there but they are clouded by the other priorities we set in our lives…

Even as I wait for the man who will hold my hand and share with me the simple joys in my heart.. I promise myself not to make it complicated and keep it to the basics…because I don’t want loose my inner child…

If you love is on the rocks dust yourself up and try to look in your lover’s eye again, search deep and find him/her. She/he is in the same eyes you once adored. Clear the mist that has clouded your love, hold his/her hand again…love is worth the fight……

Discover how electrical holding his/her hand is, love with all your heart………..

THE MILES COVERED

Tonight i think of the miles i have traveled in my life till present. i think of the people who have made it possible for me to come this far.. Tear fill my eyes when i think of a heroine in my life, someone who gave her life to making sure my siblings and I had the best… I recall watching her every evening, tired from work and probably hungry but she would always be the last to take a plate, the last one to fill her plate with food.. Back then I never realized what a gesture this was…

As I sit here tonight I think of where she is now, is she happy? Was she happy to walk with us through the journey of our lives? Is it fair to go on with my life and leave her behind to enjoy every moment of her life? Will I be abandoning her when I leave to start a family of my own? I wonder if she knows how much I love her and even though the latest miles in my life were covered away from her, every moment was possible because of the love I saw in her eyes.

I miss her tonight and I wish I could stay around the fire with her tonight and listen to her talk, I wish to let her know that she is a heroine in my life, to let her know that her humility has touched me to the core; her tolerance has inspired me to be strong. It must have been hard for her to raise the nine of us but not once did I hear her complain or break down..

Words may not describe what role she has played in my life and she may not know that the miles in my life were only covered as a result of the discipline she instilled in me. Every night when I look into the sky above, I don’t give it a mere passing glance; I thank God that He gave my mother…

You may wonder why I write this and I know it doesn’t mean anything to you what I think of my mother but I wish to encourage to reflect on the miles in your past, the miles you have covered, and thank the person who has been an inspiration in your life. As for me it’s my mother and she is continues to guide me in her gentle words… I may not have the chance to tell that I love her tonight but I whisper it to the wind and I hope she gets it before she lays to bed…

I love you mama……

POEM FOR MAMA:

She guided me, protected me, and taught me;

She was there when I woke from a scary dream,

Held my hand through the night when I had my fever;

Never gave up on me when I cried all night through;

She watched my first steps;

She cared for me;

She taught me the meaning of love, inscribed the way to love in my life;

In the heat of the sun she carried me on her back when my feet failed;

She saw me in my worst times, what more can I ask for;

What words can describe the warmth I felt when she rocked me in her bosom?

When I was scared of the lightning and thunder, she told me a story to be brave;

She taught me humble ways,

Words fail me. Her noble heart, humble gestures and reassuring smiles;

The smile I have on my face is from you mama;

I may not have your dimple on my cheeks, but I have it in my heart;

I am the daughter of my mother and I am proud to be her child..

Let the world know, you capture my heart;

I love you………

THE STRENGTH TO LET GO

The strength to let go………

Ever wondered how to get back on your feet after a knock down from rejection;

The blow comes suddenly, catches you off guard. In the matters of the heart there are no time calculations to prepare you for the pain; It comes at a moment when your heart is in utopia, you care for him/her; perhaps you like him/ her; or even deeper, you love him/her;

You ask yourself, where do you find the strength and courage to walk the boulevard of broken dreams; at that moment you know you can’t change the course of events, it’s all in her/his power, you whisper a little prayer for the bad dream to go away, pinch yourself to wake up from this nightmare; tears fill up your eyes and your heart feels weary; she/he has cut a flower in the bud…

Where does the strength come from for the heart to light up again and beat like before; it was just few moments back that you were floating on air; your dream is gone; he/she is gone, slipped away through your fingers…cry tonight, cry the next night and find the strength to face another day. Life allows you to grieve but bear in mind that a broken heart will heal; a broken spirit has no remedy; try not to sink too low, hold on to a straw like a drowning man, the currents are too strong, currents of frustration, pain and broken dreams;

Tonight you are lost and don’t know where to start from, no light at the end of the tunnel, no warm embrace you had hoped for, she/he is gone. Sit down write down all the things that made him/her special on a sheet of paper; the things that made your heart beat for her/him; the dreams you once shared; strike a match and let the paper burn, watch the flames grow stronger and dimmer; that’s how your pain will be; it will be overwhelming and excruciating but it will dim down in time; your pain will melt away…

Cry tonight, whisper your frustrations to the wind close yourself in a dark room but wake tomorrow and see the open door before you. Find the strength to let him/her go. TRUE LOVE is one to let go and wish your loved one the best in all their endeavors…hold the handle to the open door before for the chance slips away. It may be a new phase to dream again…….

You find your healing; in the process of letting go…..be courageous…LET GO

POWER OF A SMILE

Today, I will try to walk you through the moments in your life when all seemed perfect; when it seemed like all was magical and a simple smile did it; its often in our lives we don’t appreciate how valuable a simple innocent smile or laugh is; you have perfect teeth, healthy lips but you still hesitate to compliment it all with a smile so gentle and healing.

it heals wounded souls, broken hearts and rejuvenates our spirit; when you need someone to lift your spirit, look deep into the eyes of your beloved , your wife, husband or child; its amazing that even a baby of tender age can afford the simple smile;

search within your soul, go back in time and see the person you once knew, think of what made you smile, find this person you have since lost in the trials of life; find yourself, share this infectious phenomenon. It may be simple but it will go deep into the souls of others.

Don’t search too far, the joy you seek is right before your eyes, crack a smile tonight and when you wash your face in the morning think of the person who makes you smile, the one who can turn around even the most foul day into a simple joyous memory, that’s who you are….

Even an old man who has lost his teeth can afford to smile at the memories of his youth, his days are numbered, his energy is long gone, but you are young and healthy, you have won the battles in your life when you thought it was the end of the road, so please smile for the mystery of tomorrow may make you frown…

I smile to you tonight my dear reader; please pass on the warm spirit….come on you can do it; smile just a little more for me….:)

NOT MEANT TO MAKE YOU FEEL GUILTY

Sitting on my bed this night, tears fill my eyes because of the overwhelming gratitude in my heart, so many times i have complained but i now realize how lucky i am. how richly life has blessed me, you may wonder why i say this but have a look at the photo above; how lucky can you be when you have food to eat and bones to throw at your dust bin?

how luckier can you get when you have clothes and you can enjoy the luxury of a shower? how better can it get when you can smile and make plans for tomorrow? isnt it so great that you can talk to your friends just by the dial of a button?

as you read this, think of the situation you are in, it could be very painful, the pain could be piercing to your core, it could be excruciating, but as you lay in your bed to cry tonite, look at the picture above and below and you will see you have a reason to smile. it could be WORSE. you may reached the end of your rope but remember it could get worse..

this post is not meant to make you feel guilty, its one to make you smile every time you wash your face in front of the mirror;

NO VULTURE TO PREDATE OVER YOU....think about it

ARE WE READY FOR THE TRUTH?

FINDING THE ANSWER

Finding the answer, at the end of the line;

When you lie down on solid ground;

Place your ears and listen to the ground talk,

Is this the answer that you seek?

The stars have gone out; will you still be shinning bright?

Search the whole world, whole life;

Search deeper no stones unturned

Find the answer you are desperate for;

Are you prepared to face the answer?

Its one of sorts, one of surprises

It may be painful; it may tear you apart;

Try on even though you may fall; find it

The rational explanation, what you seek for

It may help to change you;

The answer that may make you let go of what you have believed in;

Are you ready to let the door slam on your faith because of answer you have desperately searched for?

Is it worth it to find this truth you yearn for?

Seek the obvious, perhaps that’s where the quest ends;

Quest for the “answer”

Only then will your mind, soul and heart find rest;

When you find the answers you seek for…

Created by Diana …………………in a pensive mood.

in search of an answer

hello dear friends,

this is a personal not to welcome you to my blog. from the title of my blog, you can see its an invitation to share your thoughts with me. everyday we encounter events that get our attention, some of these occurrences have a lasting impact on our lives and some we may never recall.we meet people who say words that touch the depths of our souls, words that could upset our inner being....

for this reason i open the doors to my heart to everyone who is free to share what they think of at the beginning and the end of each day; every night before you lay to bed lets share a word or two, lets open our thoughts and hearts to each other, sharing all the positive and negative daily experiences in a thoughtful manner...

its my strong belief that there is always more to what meets the eye...you have to search within your soul and listen to what your heart is saying.....you can never go wrong if you listen to your heart...

share your thoughts with me...........