Saturday 31 January 2009

One step back…

Often we reach at a point in our lives when we come to sudden realization that the dream we held on to for so long is unattainable. Perhaps so much time has been wasted; perhaps not all the resources were allocated wisely. The pain, regret and wish to be in control of time flood our minds; clouding our reasoning abilities.

The question is clear; how do we get on with life? How do we accept the situation as it is? Well don’t get me wrong I am not advising you to give up your dreams. Neither am I saying that letting go is the easiest thing to do. All I am saying is that we may come to suddenly realize what we dreamt about is not feasible. The main point today is that how do we get back to re prioritize our dreams? How do we accept and let go when the time is right?

With my little experience in life; I would confidently say that it all starts with baby steps; starts with one small step but hold it! Baby steps are usually towards the mother or father, a sense of hope. In this case I would advise you on one of the hardest things to do, take the step backward. Moving away from the dream. You don’t have to set yourself any targets; you have to take it easy. Don’t rush it for Rome wasn’t built in a day.

Let’s take a more vivid example; you had a dream of being with someone perhaps for life but this dream partner is suddenly taken away from you or he/she marries another. You know that you have no chance to achieve your dream but the pain could cloud your ability to see this clearly. We must realize that life has to go on and the only way is to start step by step in the opposite direction. If you used to call her/him everyday, do it once in every 2 days; if you had a picture of her/him by your beside, keep it away. Tears may fall as you do this; your heart may tear apart as you try to recover but how many lost dreams were the resurrections to new ones? Hundreds!

With every closing door in our lives, opens a new one..how long will the new ones be open? Nobody knows but I am confident that there are better dreams to dream; there is hope to discover the real dream. There is a chance to redeem the lost moments only in a new setting. This needs you to be brave, with every backward step you take; you come to face to face with the dreams you overlooked while you on the chase for the unattainable…

Pray for wisdom to see this. Pray that you may see the options that life sets for you today. Step by step…..only the direction is reverse….

Sunday 25 January 2009

In search of a familiar face……

Ever walked on a busy street and felt lonely. You perhaps wondered what had brought to where you were. The period of your life could be confusing, perhaps making your heart feel weak that once again you had failed to realize the dream you had dared to dream. People swam past you, you are a figure unrecognizable, perhaps your friends are unreachable and you are alone in the middle of the side walk.

Every face is fast moving and all are strange around you. With every eye contact you feel the suspicion from the beholder. You want to break free from this cocoon and show the world the beautiful colors inside of you. The rainbow that should be glowing in your heart but wait, the rainbow comes only after the rain. At this moment its still raining in your heart and soul and you can’t stop the rain from falling…

Hmmm..perhaps its time to embrace change that you never anticipated; perhaps it’s the loss of something you held on dear to or it could be lack of solution to a nagging problem. You are lost in the crowd and you feel small. Feels like everyone is trampling over you and laughing on as though it didn’t matter…amazing how life can take us up and bring us down over time….

But hey, are you alone? No, no one is ever alone in this vast universe. You may call it an angel, karma or something you believe in but they are always with you. Set your eyes across the busy crowd and search for a familiar face. This face is always there, waiting for you to find it. It may be on the cover of a magazine, or perhaps on a billboard, or even the person walking past you. This face will always signify some kind of fresh hope, optimism that “I have been there too but I made it and now I can smile”….its a subtle feeling when you find this face and it can make you smile again…

From the simple grin to a warm handshake, this familiar face could be your connection to the bright side again. This face may awaken the rainbow that is inside you heart. Search for it. From the smile and laugh of a child to the tears of a grown man, lies a face that knows you…knows you by heart..search for it…..

Sunday 18 January 2009

SPIDER'S WEB

There comes a time in life when we have no control over the spider’s web in our lives. We get to a point when we give in our all and we are at the mercy of the person who has our heart. They are the ones in charge of weaving of the web which could accommodate you and one which could be too small for you. This person holds the thread to weave, he knows the design, and he/she knows the colors to add. You are not included in the process.

How lonelier can it get when you have no voice in the decision being made over your life and feelings. It hurts sometimes and sometimes you want to give up and walk away (which in most cases is the wise thing) but your heart wants to stay to fight for another day.

I am talking about loving someone, who doesn’t feel the same way or did but decides to pull back. Your mind races on the time you spent together, the words said which raised your hopes. Yes, it’s a pain worth going through because it refines you, models your thinking and perhaps makes you stronger and ready for heart breaks at any time of your life.

There was a time they needed you, when they requested for your presence but now tables are turned. The words you say could push them further away and every call you make may crowd them. I am not trying to make you have self pity if you are in such a situation but I am trying to give you an assurance that you are not alone. Take heart, today you may not have the thread to weave the web with him/her, to hold their hands when the weaving needle pricks their fingers.

Today to have no place in this web but remember you have a place to start weaving your own beautiful web. It maybe lonely to do so but in your web, you can add the colors you desire to have, you can paint it with the colors of the rainbow. The design is yours and nobody can take it away. Get a hold of your tools and start weaving again, step by step make it a home for you and tell your heart its gonna be alright…

Weave on my dearest reader….weave on…